20th birthday

Ya...Im 20 already.
I dont know what kind of feeling i have now. @.@
Just feel like...nothing special, but indeed...it is extraordinary for me.
My family acted cool to my birthday...
this situation changed after i posted my feeling on fb.
thanks to fb, my bro sent a msg to greet me...actually was more toward apologise ><
is ok. I accepted it XD
my parent think that...they can use money to buy my happiness.
sorry, dad and mum.
what i really need is...whole family members sang birthday song to me.
and...almost near the end of the day, they sang to me.
I am satisfied XD
my tears "'mei you bai liu" >M<
Before this moment reached, thanks to my dear friends...willing accompany me to celebrate ^^
I am grateful to have you all.
Thank you, Lord...gave me courage to state out my feeling to them. although it is not direct method, You have let them to know it.
=)


It is hard to be parent.
I know it.
But Because I can celebrate my bday at hometown, thats why...I insist to celebrate bday with you.
dont say "go to celebrate your bday with your friends" anymore...ok?
it hurts.

Happy Valentine Day

It is normal for us that...
whenever there is a special day, before we go to celebrate, we will grumble here, argue there...(normally is me only la) =,=|||
i dont like this kind of feeling. hrm...i think most of us will dislike this feeling too.
atmosphere is totally affected. sigh*
anyway, thanks for your gift.
i like it ^^
although we cant celebrate this special day on the special date, i still appreciate your arrangement.
THANK YOU~

On 14/2/2012 - is my first time to sing k..
haha.
with my friends who are single and available or not available. XP
except me. ops >,<
Dad, you owe me a "ren qing zai" o...
i help you to be the companion to mum to celebrate this day by having dinner together ya.
So...know how to do le e?XD
haha.
Dad, please be more caring and lovely lo.
Or else you will fail to be a "boyfriend" >-<

Ok, lets back to the point - sing k.
when i first entered the room (after having our dinner), i was shocked!
so many people.
crazy la.
but it is a nice experience.
We laugh. we shout. we clap.
it is harder and harder to have a gathering like this, with quite a number of people here~woits >,<
thanks for your arrangement, sk =)

all in all, im happy ^^
I wish our friendship can last as long as we can ^.<



***i think...i like you.
***but i decide...to hide my feeling towards you.
***for our own good.
***friendship forever =]

亲爱的自大

经过几天的思考。。。
我决定：
我要挽回你。
我要让你成为自爱。
等着接招把～

新年。完了。

时间匆匆跑了。
无论我在后面怎么追。它始终跑了。
一直到前天，我的新年时光--快快乐乐、轻轻松松。
那一天。我不想忘记。不想忘记我竟然失去理智说了那句恶毒的话。
“他要死，就去死，不要害了我们。”
撒旦真的好强。
利用了我感情的弱点，说出这么可怕的话。

我...要学习理智。求 神怜悯。
对不起。

亲爱的老顽固：
病了，就该看医生。
为什么这么伤我的心。
不要整天说“死了更好，上天堂。”
拜托啦。你以为上天堂了就不需面对审判吗？
若你真的死了，你敢不敢面对 神的面？
你做了 神托负你的事吗？
死亡...我也期待它能快点来临到我的身上。
对我来说...世上一切都是虚空。（虽然我常常在乎成绩等事物。）
但我选择等待我死亡的时间。
既然时候未到，就代表你还有任务还没完成。
既然 神给你生病的讯号了，你就去看医生吧。

你怕抽血，是不是？
我也怕，但我愿意陪你。咱们一起抽吧。

我哀求你。请乖乖听话。好吗？


亲爱的自大：
我以为那只是谣言。
我选择相信你。
但...事实恐怕不是这样吧。
...
你到底为什么每月都要去那个地方？
那里有你的小女人吗？
哈。
小心被她骗哦。
到时失财又失人。
我...还是会帮你的。放心。
只是...我不会对你...像以前那样了。


选择了冷漠，不是对你没感情，而是要保护自己。
我明白自己的身份。
无权向你过问。
但我会争气的，并且变得更坚强。


有时候的伪装，是为了和谐。
有时候的假装，是为了宁静。
我也知道我已经不小了。
不能想哭就哭，想笑就笑。

就这样。我选择忍耐。为了幸福。

*我仍...祷告着。求 神当中做工。
我仍然盼望着。


发泄完毕~

元宵节快乐！=)

Happy Chinese New Year ^^

This year...
I think is the year that I was so crazy in bai nian-ing ba XD
From The first day till the ninth, I have went to many many houses...uncountable~~~~~
For the First four days, of course, spent the time with family and relatives.
After that, its friend's gathering time~
IT IS INDEED A MEMORABLE TIME FOR ME.
I appreciate it ^^
thanks God for what you have prepared for me.

Happy Dragon's Year, my Dearest Friends~!