Totally a nervous wreck

Finally...PRESENTATION date is notified.

I am becoming a nervous wreck.

This problem has been following me for 18 years. (I can't remember anything that had happened before 4 years old)

I search youtubes, read articles...in order to become a day of hero --> at least, not afraid of standing in front of the audience and give a speech for only 15 minutes. T^T

I know this is just about a PASS or FAIL presentation. But I can't control my nerves!

Ahhhh...Weee....Lehhhh.... (do you hear my heart's screaming?)

No one would know how that feel...As I did not tell anyone.
Just writing nonsense to distract my attention. Hopefully.

"2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

In the least...I am not alone.

SIT presentation: 24/4/2014

Naive -- after so long

Naive will lead you to be the stupid one in people’s eyes, but the smart one in God’s eyes.

“Im naive,” you said.

...though I think I am mature. LOL

“Lots to learn, daughter,” You said.

“You have beautified people’s personality, every people”, you said. 

But...I was once a hatred girl who closed her heart tightly.

“You are beautiful as I am the One who made you,” You said.

 “Do not believe anyone easily, even your friends,” you said. 

Erm...I was not a loyalty person as well. I broke several promises before.

 

Forgive yourself.

“Love with My love, not yours. Though they may betray, may hurt your feeling...They are the sinners I love, of course, including you,” You said.

"I am an arrogant sinner...Whenever there is stress, I prefer to be alone. I forgot...I will never be alone. As I have made the choice -- Jesus. Maybe I am the type of person - fast to believe people, fast to drop tears, fast to be frustrated, fast to be...in conclusion, lots of weakness...However, I am grateful for the reason --- Have Lord in My Life. If not, I wouldn't know how much I will release the grudge on people...Without You, I would be a shameless woman, keep complaining without knowing the faults that I have made. Your mercy and cure, is better than any medicine."

I am tired of being unhappy. Cheers, Life is too short to be upset all the time. 

There are so many beautiful reasons to be happy, Praise the Lord, just because He is alive~