Totally a nervous wreck

Finally...PRESENTATION date is notified.

I am becoming a nervous wreck.

This problem has been following me for 18 years. (I can't remember anything that had happened before 4 years old)

I search youtubes, read articles...in order to become a day of hero --> at least, not afraid of standing in front of the audience and give a speech for only 15 minutes. T^T

I know this is just about a PASS or FAIL presentation. But I can't control my nerves!

Ahhhh...Weee....Lehhhh.... (do you hear my heart's screaming?)

No one would know how that feel...As I did not tell anyone.
Just writing nonsense to distract my attention. Hopefully.

"2 Timothy 1:7 - For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."

In the least...I am not alone.

SIT presentation: 24/4/2014

Naive -- after so long

Naive will lead you to be the stupid one in people’s eyes, but the smart one in God’s eyes.

“Im naive,” you said.

...though I think I am mature. LOL

“Lots to learn, daughter,” You said.

“You have beautified people’s personality, every people”, you said. 

But...I was once a hatred girl who closed her heart tightly.

“You are beautiful as I am the One who made you,” You said.

 “Do not believe anyone easily, even your friends,” you said. 

Erm...I was not a loyalty person as well. I broke several promises before.

 

Forgive yourself.

“Love with My love, not yours. Though they may betray, may hurt your feeling...They are the sinners I love, of course, including you,” You said.

"I am an arrogant sinner...Whenever there is stress, I prefer to be alone. I forgot...I will never be alone. As I have made the choice -- Jesus. Maybe I am the type of person - fast to believe people, fast to drop tears, fast to be frustrated, fast to be...in conclusion, lots of weakness...However, I am grateful for the reason --- Have Lord in My Life. If not, I wouldn't know how much I will release the grudge on people...Without You, I would be a shameless woman, keep complaining without knowing the faults that I have made. Your mercy and cure, is better than any medicine."

I am tired of being unhappy. Cheers, Life is too short to be upset all the time. 

There are so many beautiful reasons to be happy, Praise the Lord, just because He is alive~

2014 久久常常的一篇

不知什么时候起
不再以部落格为心情的出口
也不知什么时候起
不再感受到新年那份兴奋感
有人说：你老啦！ =.=
有人说：长大啦！（其实是说好听点的“你老啦！”）
有人再说：青春一去不回来啦。。。(一拳。。。)

一年又一年
当然年数增高啊，怎么可能倒退叻

过年嘛，以“轻熟人”的身份来告诉你：（有轻熟女，就该有轻熟人）
最怕四个字：
你肥了咯！（Nani!!!)
**过后你就不敢吃、心郁闷得很 T^T

最怕五个字：
有伴侣了吗？(饶了我吧!!!)
**就这样，开始了该有的一连串问题

最怕六个字：
几时打算结婚？(书都没念完，怎么结???)
**哇咧，开始了从前从前从前的故事

最怕七个字：
读完书，打算干嘛？(这...这...那...那...人家正享受现有人生，别打断!!!)
**再一次，就这样，为你出主意...

初期，刚进入2字头...“接受不了！！”是长期台词。
习惯了，就说：“我的心还在18岁啦！”，还一脸娇羞样...OM~
天-春夏秋冬；人-生老病死。。。
人之常情、天之常情、地之常情...
一切都不是按着上帝的时间走吗？

时代变了、新年也或许走样了……
大吃大喝不再是新年的专利。
任务达成-来，随便吃！
生日party-来，随便吃！
开会完-来，随便吃！
婚宴-来，随便吃！
就连离婚-来，随便吃！脱离双身万岁！
。。。

常听老妈子说：以前过年啊，汽水拿到了要好好藏起来，不然兄弟姐妹会打架、偷拿……
现在：连喝都不想喝了，因为喝了会肥、对身体不好、太甜啦...不好喝。
代沟，不沟通，当然跨不过这沟渠。问题是，试着努力了吗？生在不同的时代，两个不同的背景，冲击在一块，要像画画般融合为一幅美丽的图需要的是时间。问题就是，“我们没有时间。”
现在不知年轻人热爱板片、网络，成年人与宝贝都会玩，甚至有些阿公阿麽玩得比我还厉害……总有时间，我们是处在一块，可是花时间沟通去了吗？
**虽然说聊天时常要面对以上“最怕问句”，可是……总好过……“你在我面前，可是你的心在哪？”的感觉～
人啊……好矛盾，就像我 >.<

感慨中……
领悟到唯一不变的是上帝、祂的性情、祂的时间。

时代变得千奇百怪，人也是复杂难懂。。。
感恩的是……至少还懂得爱与珍惜。
爱要及时=珍惜呗～
在世上，你的时间一到，就不能继续了。
在地上，若你不珍惜新年，与人之间的相处，或许就没有下次了。
在家里，若你不珍惜家人，工作了，相隔两地了，就很难有机会了。
在学校……在公司……
人与人相见，就一个字--缘。上帝安排的缘。

或许现在闹僵了。但是感恩，至少还能挽回。（或许吧 >.<）
如果不能，还是感恩。至少我认识了他/她。
或许现在不在了。但是感恩，至少还有回忆。
总之，感恩吧～

这就是新年感恩篇 XD
**是有点乱的解构，但是思路还算清晰。大致上还行！（不要脸）哈哈

新年蒙恩啦！

2013 - Another blessing year~??

January:
At the very beginning of 2013, We should start with this:

You cant find me inside as...

I start the year with allergic eyes >.< haiz~cant even open my eyes T^T

When i went back to hometown, it was cured, however I have to wear a sunglass to avoid sunlight LOL 

February:

on Valentine day, four besties gathering just at my house~miss those time so much! we chit chat till 11 almost 12am...Wish our friendship forever! 

My Uni West Malaysia friends came to Sarawak for gai gai before CNY. I hope I was a good host la~Still can remember that funny moment --- Im not dare to drive estima, keep saying "I cant la!!!" I think I have scared them...but really really...Hai hao gor was there ^^

Visited Miri as well~

CNY ON!!! SMK BANDAR in the house =P

March:

First time ever went oversea with 2 friends only, 1 male and 1 female..still...feeling proud of myself XD Thanks to the cute Vietnamese Girl~

Vietnam, we came! Ho Chi Minh city and Nha Trang~

Im in Nha Trang, not Egypt yo..haha

April:

Again, went to travelling with bestie...2 girls with 1 maps only in KL wer~claps claps for our bravery XP

In the National Mosque, so we had to dress up like this...super hot weather...NVM, I was dressed in purple, so dont mind la XD

We explored many places, just with the map...I like this kind of exploration! >.< Though only went to China Town, Bird Park, etc...But by our own effort, no tour guide, still happy and excited~We also tried the delicious mochi in Pavillion...go to Japan Street, and you can find it!!

We even conquered KL Tower XD and also Ice Skating (still in beginner state la)

After KL trip, we went to MS Captain, a meaningful and lovely Christian Camp...We were divided into groups and each group is illustrated as a ship with tailors! I am the musician with no pro music background =P

Then Then...went to Pangkor with church members. Actually I was not really familiar with them...but Someone was not giving up in persuading me...So...^^||| but...it was a good start to know them after 3 years at Ipoh Church, without taking initiative to chat with them......

April was my fully packed month >.< We went to Gunung Lang and explored Ipoh (where I never go before)

Rainbow shoplots it Ipoh...ever notice them, Ipoh lang? X)

May:

Begun to be closer with those friends...Older time, we were "say HI" friends, not can be chit chat friends...Improve~Miss the time we were so eng that time XD

My first time completed a 1000 pieces puzzle...unbelievable! of course with the help of them la~

Because of Someone 'silly' idea, Overnight at Wen Pin house...super tired but had to wake up extreme early as we wanted to watch sunrise but fail as we were on the backside of the hills =~=

We went to KK, Sabah before our semester starto...

Even celebrate our batch good good man's bday there!

waterfall!! cool water with cool people, haha

June:

Joined post graduate gang...felt awkward but get knowing the different lifestyle, so not bad too!!

July:(start our sem, getting busier and busier, so less outing and special occasion liao..)

Farewell my good friend! after 1 year only meet ya ^^

My first geofield camp in a super duper rural area for me...no wifi, no bathroom, no road, no phone line....but I enjoyed it, still...a special experience which not everyone can have ler~ XD

My first famine 30...saw christine fan, crystal lee and other celebrities..but the main point not went to see them, but experience the hunger...I will try my best to not waste food~

August:

Outing with new faces --- church juniors in Ipoh again XD

Wait for meteorite rain...but nothing in the end...sad case la...stay awake till 4am le!! 16.8.13 (...officially on)

Also my first time did lab till early in the morning 4am...so tired..................Petrel ar~~

September:

He accompanied me back to hometown to see my parent...overall...awesome XP

October: seniors graduated.............

November:

We did our very first retreat camp at Ipoh church! bondings are improved lots!!Thanks God for what you have done...

December:

My family came to ipoh to visit me as well...Grateful and thankful~what can I say? XD

After the first Murphy interview for internship, I Accompanied Chua to visit his dear grandma...May God save her life...Eternal Life.

Before going back from KL (visited his family), He and I went to a mini trip ---> captured the design of each malls XD

Its Tang yuan Day~

Its Christmas Day! (Hand movement ^^)

Last last last pic...

End with a cute puppy he and I found~hehe

Happy New Year!!!