It is just too hard to explain everything.

Cut my hair.
Never think that I will cut it again...for someone.
Not because of love one, hate one...
a deed that I can only do for now...
To tell..Its end. If it is wish for like this.
For a friend.

I do not know how:
to care of;
to show my appreciation on this friendship;
to express my tiredness on handling this occurrence;
to say "Im sorry."

The lesson from this happening:
Do not ever say something with fully confidence.
Things are kept changing.
"I will not do that" is easily become
"I can only do that way to avoid XXX."

Well.. This shows that human...
cannot predict future.
cannot make promise. (better dont as you will not know when you gonna break it)
cannot too believe in yourself. (always be humble)
cannot put faith on people as...
we are sinful people.

Promise is a matter which involves only two parties.
But the time can complicate everything.

And also your pride.

When it happens, it just happens.
you couldnt ask: why you love me?
if love can be explained, that is like.
Jesus died for us on the cross, is His choice.
He chooses to love us, though people betray Him.
This is true love.
Unconditional love.
you couldnt ask: hey, back luck, why you choose me?
This is fate?
Fate is not in our hands.
You can grumble, you can be ignorant, you can...
But nothing will change.
Fact is fact.

Just like Im not prepared to tell, and It spreads like a disease.
It is scary, you know.
Maybe you will question me:
why are you still doing it although you are not prepared?

Watch Despicable Me 1 before?
like the unicorn and the three kittens.
Unicorn's life changes suddenly due to the presence of...
Unpredictable three kittens.

We are weak, thats why We need God.
In God, I am strong.
God is the only one who accompany us forever and ever.
God knows everything.
Why God dont tell us earlier before things happen?
Well...If God do tell us, are we prepared to accept it?
or...We rather choose another way to solve or escape from it?
HE knows Us well. Very Well.

Dont underestimate Him and Dont...Overestimate yourself.
You will fall down badly in order to stand again..
So that we can learn to bow down before Him..Let He strengthen you.

Thing has happened. What I can do is...
Bear with the consequence.
Learn to be strong.
Never ever make any not-that-vital or not-that-necessary promise.

Keep it. And Show it by action. No more say it out.

I promise. X.

Life is not perfect. Thats why we need God to renew our lives with LOVE and HOPE with our FAITH.